A parable.

You have a girlfriend. She's a moody gal, but very generous. You become indebted to her, and rather than deal with it you break up with her. She is angry but moves on.

Months pass. You ride your bike past her house to see if she's home. You drunk dial her. You make sure everyone who has ever met her knows what a BITCH she is.

You wish she'd call.

Here's some unsolicited advice: leave her alone. She's got enough going on without your interferences into her life.